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A little background on the first picture: I started writing this super-elaborate novel four years ago about a world I made up called Estradia. (It turned out to be too elaborate for a fourteen-year-old. ^^;) In Estradia, there are four kingdoms; Falias, Khet, Aithor, and Kanja. I was randomly sketching out this girl, who was just supposed to be a princess or something. My brain suddenly thought, This is the princess of Falias! and from there, I started thinking up her story. I may decide to write it all out some day. Maybe this summer, when all I have is time.
Anyway, I'm also kind of pissed today. My parents are so set on me going to university some day, and I don't know if I want that. I mean, why waste so much time and money if it's not even going to be good for anything in the long run? I don't want to be a "recent graduate drowning in debt and working at a job that doesn't pay enough to relieve the debt." I want to be the person with a decent enough job that I'm not going hungry and I can pay for a small apartment.
I really want to focus on my art and writing, though. That's my main goal in life, to be a really good artist/illustrator. And maybe write a few good books. I'm not looking to be rich or famous.
If high school is taking over all my time, leaving me with no downtime, imagine how shitty I'm going to feel when I'm trying to finish a ten-page essay or studying for finals. Art isn't just talent and a burst of inspiration. It takes time and effort. I have zero energy and time for those things, I'm so burned out from trying my hardest not to fail my high school classes.
The worst thing is that I'm never good at explaining these things to my parents, so I just sound like a lazy, whiny rebel who doesn't want to do anything in life. I don't plan on living with my parents forever. I will get a job, I will live on my own. I'm not going to be a burden on them.
Rant over. :) I really needed to get that out.
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