So, now that I'm not loopy from the anesthesia, I can recount my wisdom tooth removal experience.

Went down to the dentist/surgeon place at 8:45 AM or so. They called me in and sat me down on a scary chair in a scary room. At least the dental assistants were nice. Still, I was trembling like hell.

They attached some wire thingies on my chest and stomach to monitor my vital signs.They tilted the chair back  and placed an oxygen mask/nose cover thing on my face . Then the doc came in and went straight to my arm. I'm not exactly fond of needles, so I was taking deep breaths and such, but I didn't feel much of a pinch. More like a whisper of a pinch. Ha. Anyway, I remember the doc was asking me questions about school and stuff. Then the room started to go all fuzzy and wavy, but in an awesome kind of way.

Suddenly, BAM. I'm sitting up in the chair, mega sleepy, mouth full gauze that feels like it's just been unceremoniously shoved in. I'm all alone except for a nice dental assistant lady. I was thinking, WTF. What happened? Lady says, "You're done!" and I'm like, Whoaaaaa... She helped me to the car, cause I felt like I've taken both Dramamine and tequila in large quantities. I'm in the car, loopy as David after the dentist, and that's when shit got weird.

I look at my mom, tears in my eyes, and say something like, "Mom... I want want waaaater..." while kind of stupidly clawing at my mouth in utter desperation. For some reason, my thirst seemed like the saddest thing in the world. Don't much remember anything from this point to when I get home.

I took off the gauze as soon as my mother allowed it. I dumped myself on my mom's bed, while sucking on an ice cube, then I blurted out, "What am I gonna do with my life?" And then I start crying. This didn't end when the sleepiness wore off, either. I was in a vulnerable state of mind all day for some odd, inexplicable reason.

Yep, that's what happened. And tomorrow is Chipmunk Face Day. Cannot wait for that.  -__-

numb...

Holy shit...

Wisdom teeth are now out of my head. Half my face is numb. Am bleeding and drooling like a motherfucker.

In pain... so much pain...

Tried to swallow a pain pill and coughed until my face was throbbing. *sighhhhh*

I'm going to try to get some sleep.

LOL MIDNIGHT

WEBCAM WHORE!!!11

So, appointment for the removal of teeth is in less than eight hours. I should get some sleep.

I did CRAPLOADS of work today... I feel oddly satisfied... until I remember the craploads I have yet to do. Endless torture, endless I say!

When I grow up I want to live off my WILDLY SUCCESSFUL novels. Yet now, with school, I cant even write. Fuck, I can't even read anything besides school shiz. No art for me.

WE ARE FAMISHED! YES! FAMISHED, WE ARE, PRECIOUS!

Ahem. I'll get some sleep now.

...no crunchable birdses...

Soundtrack of my life

I saw this on someone's LiveJournal and thought I'd do it for fun. It took me all day to put this together. o_o I have no life.

If my life was a movie, this would be the soundtrack:

OPENING CREDITS: Sonata Arctica  - Everything Fades to Gray (instrumental version)
CAR DRIVING SCENES: Imogen Heap – Speeding Cars
HIGH SCHOOL FLASHBACK SCENE: Moby - Pale Horses
NOSTALGIC SCENES: Cat Power - The Greatest
BITTER/ANGER SCENES: Linkin Park - Bleed it Out
MAD AT FRIENDS SCENES: Regina Spektor - Apres Moi
BREAKUP SCENES: Regina Spektor - Real Love (John Lennon cover)
NIGHTCLUB/BAR SCENES: Evanescence - Going Under
FIGHT/ACTION SCENES: Metallica - Wherever I May Roam (ha, totally random.)
SAD/BREAKDOWN SCENES: CocoRosie - Werewolf
SCARY SCENES: Alison Krauss - Trampled Rose (playing in the background like in “The Strangers”)
DEATH SCENES: Evanescence - Hello
FUNERAL SCENES: Delerium - Fallen
CHEER UP SCENES: Polyphonic Spree - Lithium
MELLOW SCENES: Bat for Lashes - Daniel
DREAM ABOUT SOMEONE SCENES: Dead Can Dance - Host of the Seraphim
SEX SCENES: Radiohead - Creep (It's a bit of an odd choice, but I think it fits perfectly)
PONDER/CONTEMPLATION SCENES: Marianne Faithfull – As Tears Go By
CHASE/HURRY SCENES: Florence + the Machine - Howl
HAPPY LOVE SCENES: U2  - Electrical Storm
HAPPY FRIENDS SCENES: Metallica – Nothing Else Matters
CLOSING CREDITS: Sonata Arctica – White Pearl, Black Oceans

I'm still not 100% satisfied with this, but it'll do.

Tomorrow is Wisdom Teeth Removal Day. D: I just hope it goes smoothly. *bites nails nervously*

House M.D. and stuff

Re-did my room today. Moved furniture around and organized my closet and drawers. I came to the conclusion that I have way too much stuff. Mountains of shit. Which is weird, because I donate stuff to Goodwill a lot. Although, now that I think of it, I am a huge pack rat, so I guess it's not much of a mystery. -__-

I also skipped art class. Hopefully for the last time, but I really really needed to catch up on my Econ and Lit classes. I feel guilty, though. Just a little bit.

Mom's gone out to get my antibiotics and Vicodin. Also, groceries. But Vicodiiiiin!!!

House knows what he's talking about.

Can't waste too much time, though. I don't want to have skipped class for nothing.

Oh, yeah, I have a blog here...

I really would like to increase the quantity of posts in my blog. I miss the days when I was younger and I would write in my journal almost daily. I'd like to write daily. Of course, I'll have to choose quantity over quality, but that's okay. I'd like this to be like my journals of old. Hopefully with less angst. Ha.

Anyway, a little recap on what's been going on. I'm still pushing through these last few months of school, mom's still going through chemo (she still has her hair), dad's working hard, and Paulina is off on some Mexican beach right now, the lucky wench. Her friend Juliette invited her to go to Los Barriles in Baja California Sur for two weeks. *Envy*

And on Friday I'm going to get my wisdom teeth taken out. ALL FOUR OF THEM. I'm going to be puffy and in pain. I won't be able to eat anything solid. The only bright side I see to this is the Vicodin the doc prescribed. Hee, I'm going to milk that for all it's worth. Just kidding, kind of...

You know, I've been going through a kind of goth/metal/geeky/anime phase. Hard to describe and it's not really a phase, it's just, I don't know, something. I've been wearing black more often, you will not see me without my black lace-up army boots (army? combat? know what I mean?), red lips, dark eyes. And not just the clothing, I've gotten into anime and stuff. I watched all 24 episodes of Clannad in two sleepless nights. I've always been into vampires, so that's not new, but I have a whole list of vampire movies to watch and books to read. Also, music! Evanescence is nothing new, but Tool, Apocalyptica, Nightwish, Delerium, all new. I liiiike! :)

Also, what would a blog post be without my whining about school? WHY WONT IT END ALREADY??

Friendless

A few weeks ago, I was feeling all lonely and friendless and stuff, and I got the urge to write about the kind of friend I would like to have. So this is what I came up with (it was three in the morning, so I was a little loopy):

"I want someone who will talk with me for hours on end about how much Fox sucks for canceling Firefly; How badass Jayne’s hat is; How awesome it would be to be a bender, like Aang and Katara and Toph; What it would be like to live in Middle Earth, or Hogwarts; The pros and cons of being a Griffindor, or a Ravenclaw, or a Hufflepuff, or a Slytherin; How awesome it would be to be an expert archer or katana wielder; The best place for leveling up in Ivalice and Spira; Final Fantasy strategies; and the like.

I want a friend who will dress up as Vampire Hunter D, or American McGee’s Alice, or a steampunk Airship Pirate and have a photo shoot. Someone who will conjure spirits with me, freak out at the tiniest noise with me, sleep with the lights on with me. Someone who knows that the nineties was the best time for cartoons and tv shows. Someone who has a dark and twisted sense of humor. Someone who will sing the Phantom’s (or Christine’s) words of Down Once More  with me. A friend who does not murder the English language unless being ironic (liek hai, OMG lawl). 

I want a friend who is a-ok with sarcasm and wit. A friend who stays up all night reading. Someone who sees art and poetry and beauty in everything. Someone who respects nature and understands that, really, humans are not the biggest or the baddest things out there.

 I want someone whom I can tell everything to, and he or she would not judge and would understand. I want someone who accepts my need to wake up in the morning and dwell on my lingering dreams.

Someone loyal, supportive, understanding, and properly geeky. I’d return the favor."

Sometimes I feel like the only geeky person on the planet. I can't be the only one with such diverse nerdy/cultural interests. Can I?

Anyway, a little update on my art. I wanted to make something for my little sis, and I got inspired by one day when we were making cupcakes. Here is the process:

Sketch

Outlines

Mid-coloring

Finished!

Also, a little look at my grand work space:

Grand!