TL;DR. Ye be Warned

I am so tied to my computer. It's an addiction, it really is. I'm thinking of restricting my internet usage a lot for the next year; A resolution, if you will.

It became clear to me this past week, when we were starting our final project in my drawing class. I had so much trouble coming up with an idea. (As whined about in this post) All I could think about was, "The internet will save me! The internet will give me ideas!" instead of coming up with ideas on my own. It's like I've become lazy when I have to be creative. Like I have no mind of my own. Instead of thinking something up myself, I check online to see what other people have come up with.

It explains the serious lack of writing, the major writer's block I have, and the artist's block. Another thing that sucks up any creativity I may have is mindless browsing. There is really no need for me to check my facebook and email more than twice a day, really. And yet, I spend my time on the internet clicking on yahoo and facebook and youtube over and over and over again, as if I expect something to change.

It's also been affecting my concentration. I never, ever have only one tab open. (even now. I'm typing this up and watching Fire and Ice on youtube.) If I ever, do, I quickly open a new one, because it feels like I should save time by multitasking. Now, I notice that even when I'm doing something not computer-related, I have to be doing something else too, just to save time. When I'm doing that, I don't fully concentrate on either thing.

Another thing that's bee a problem with me lately is spending way too much time watching TV shows. I feel like I'm watching too many at a time, ad I can't even keep track of what happened in which show. I swear, right now I am watching Battlestar Galactica, Clannad After Story, Mushi-Shi, Last Exile, X-Files, Avatar The Last Airbender, Doctor Who, and Firefly (the last three for the second time). Lost and Doctor Who alone have cost me most of my year. Now, I'm a lover of a good story, so I am definitely not cutting out TV shows altogether, but I am going to limit how many I am allowed to watch at one time (probably two is all I can handle).

Now, I don't want this post to be just about the things I am going to cut out, but also what I am going to focus on this year. Reading, for one. I miss the feeling of getting sucked in to a story to the point of not being able to put it down, to the point that I cry at a character's loss and cheer at their successes. I have not gotten to that point in hardly any book that I've read this year, because of my internet-an-tv-fueled ADD. I've read a fair few books, but too sporadically. So a focus on reading for next year.

Playing video games may come as a surprising thing to focus on, but it is something that I have too long abandoned. I am talking specifically about Final Fantasy X and X-2. I miss the satisfaction of leveling up and defeating bosses. It is something that required quite a bit of dedication. I am one to replay old games like Spyro the Dragon and Jak 2 and Shadow of the Colossus over and over, never moving on to new games. So, finishing FFX and X-2, and trying out new games. Skyrim and KOTOR are on the top of the list.

Writing and art are, obviously, a huge thing I want to focus on. I still have to many characters in my head whom are begging to have their stories told, and I will not let them turn to dust. I have too many dreams that should have been drawn and made real, but have sadly wasted away in a brain that goes in a million different directions and has no time to concentrate on anything. I need a little bit of discipline.

Also, blogging. I still like blogging, because if feels like a grown up version of journaling, but I need to update less when I have nothing to say. I think I have one too many posts that just say LOL NOTHING'S HAPPENED BUT I FEEL LIKE POSTING MY FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS ANYWAY. No more. (I still may need to vent sometimes, but that's different.)

In conclusion (I know, finally) I really want to discipline myself, to learn to concentrate, to multitask less, and to finish more. Turn off the TV, turn on the music. Close the laptop, open a book. Yeah, that sounds good. It's my new mantra. And screw waiting until January. I'm starting now. :D I feel very motivated.

Pontypool review, AKA, the Only Movie That Has Scared Me In Years.

I love scary movies, and I love the feeling of being scared. However, I haven't been truly frightened by a movie since I was about ten. Until last night, when I watched Pontypool.

I don't know if it was the fact that I watched it in the middle of the night with the lights off, but for some reason, in the middle of the movie, I had to pause it, go to my parents' room just to make sure they were there, and then return to the movie. I know. I actually felt fear when watching a movie.

Let me start off by saying that this is not your usual scary movie, at least not at first. There is no blood and gore until the second half of the movie (which is admittedly not the better half of the movie, but I'll get to that in a bit). It gets to you by playing on your primal fear of the unknown. It leaves you with a feeling of dread and unease, because you don't see what's happening, you're being told what's happening outside. You could almost close your eyes and it would scare you just the same, since it is being told as a "radio play." As you start to understand, you also begin to fear for the safety of the characters, because by now, you feel you are one of them.

The second half, as I said, isn't its strong point. It gets a little illogical. I won't spoil it, but it gets a little out there, and all feelings of uncertainty give way to incredulity. However I'm not saying it's unwatchable. It's well worth seeing until the end.

*SPOILER*


The only problem I had with this movie was the illogical explanation for what was happening. A virus? That spreads by words? It seems to me that all attempts to make this sound believable failed. All logic was abandoned. I really think the writer could have thought of something better, but I suppose that this movie wasn't really anything more that symbolic, but I'm not up to analyzing anything today.

HAIR, Y U NO BUTT-LENGTH ALREADY?

I am cleaning my room, listening to E-Type (Free Like A Flying Demon- good song), looking forward to a hot chocolate later and maybe a couple hours of playing my old Jak 2 game. I have nothing to complain about.

:D

I'm oddly happy despite a hefty art final that I have to do and mom's chemo tomorrow. I'm not complaining at all, this is a very nice mood I'm in.

Here's a random picture of me I just found, lookin like an elf. :P I am a weirdo.

I want the Doctor Who theme as my ringtone.

I was just starting to feel shitty. I came on here to bitch about it and everything, and then I started watching an episode of Doctor Who. I INSTANTLY FEEL BETTER. Doctor Who is a god. It may be the closest thing I have to an actual religion.

Cousins are coming over tomorrow. The house is clean. My new computer needs an internet connection.

Short post is short.

Playing with the big boys now

Gyuuuuh! The Lost ending was... well... good. Not perfect, but hell, if I was the one writing this show, I wouldn't have thought of a better way to end it besides **SPOILERS** killing everyone. I may have shed a tear, there were a lot of touching moments. But anyway, as much as I enjoyed this show, I am glad it's over. There are tons of other shows out there I need to watch.


Sayid by *ObsessedGirl on deviantART

I'm thinking of starting on Battlestar Galactica. I've heard it's good.

I read some old journals of mine. Damn, I was a messed up, violent kid. Explains why I'm a messed up teenager/young adult. I'm a lot less ashamed of myself, though. I know what I am and I'm not afraid to show it. As much as reading the old notebooks made me go "Whut." they also made me proud at how far I've come.

COMPUTER MASCHINE PANZERMENSCH

Freshly dyed hair... *sniffs it* Still smells like harsh chemicals. *Looks at it in the mirror* And it's still not red enough. I'm slowly building up to my ideal color. Mind you, my natural color is black, so at least this is something.

I'm, like, an episode away from the finale of Lost. Now they killed Sayid, and Sun and Jin, those damn writers. They offed all my favorite characters. I haven't been this annoyed since they killed off Ana Lucia.

Back hurts, I think I pulled a muscle while moving furniture around my room. It's nothing too bad, but it's annoying.

My cousins from Guadalajara are coming to visit this Friday and staying for Thanksgiving. I am happy, I miss them. :)

I have a feeling I'm going to wake up with a red-stained pillowcase tomorrow morning.

This made me laugh a lot. I'm going to try it with Luna. :P

What does it meeean???

I'm on the last season of Lost, and all I can say is GODDAMN FINALLY. I like this show and it keeps me really hooked, but sometimes I want to punch the writers in the face. And fuck them especially for killing off Sayid. (Oh, wait... he's alive!) Also fuck them for boring us with Sawyer-Kate-Jack love triangle. Still, I expect some answers.

My couch is annoyingly squeaky.

I am going to force myself to write and draw today. Now that I seem to have found my muse! :'D

Are you going to Scarborough Fair...?

I watched Stardust yesterday, and I loved it. <3 OMG, I'll be honest when I say I'm not a huge fan of Robert De Niro, but the scenes with him and his ship's crew made me laugh. Oh and OF COURSE BEN BARNES WAS IN THE MOVIE. I swear, I'm not stalking him. ;P He just likes me, I think.

I am probably going to see the new Twilight movie. Not by choice, either. My friends are FORCING me to go with them. TO THE MIDNIGHT OPENING SHOW. I may just ditch them. Psh, I'm not happy about having to waste money to go see a movie that I will not like.

Oooh, and it raining today. It's perfect, I don't have to go out either. :D I think it's hot chocolate time! Yay!!

There is a Renaissance Faire in Escondido this weekend and damn it I WANT TO GO.

'Cause sick people are high-larious!

I am crocheting meself a scarf. We'll see how it turns out. It just really needs to be layers-wearing and hot-chocolate drinking season already. It'd be nice to have someone to cuddle up to, as well. My kitty Luna will have to do, I guess.

Watching Firefly right now. Haha, Simon is so awkward. Bahaha and did Jayne just call Inara, "Eye-nehra?" I love Jayne, that pretend-dumb brute. Whyyyyy was this show cancelled?!?! I need a 'Browncoat' shirt. Let my geek-flag fly!

Oooh, I realized my mom threw away a bunch of old towels, among them one of my favorites. It was Lisa Frank. This made me grumpy. Don't judge me. (First World Problems)

Also, the Halloween candy? Got to go. I probably already gained five pounds.

Ow... I think the cramps are starting. This is not good. :(

Justin Bieber couldn't have gotten a girl pregnant, his balls haven't dropped.

I really hate school sometimes. It's all a really big goddamn hassle. I just want a nice job that pays relatively well (not even well well, just something that pays enough). But no. I have to go to school and get a degree, because according to society, if I don't go to college I'm a failure.

...They're probably right. I'm such a lazy, cowardly piece of shit. I wish I had the balls to be my own hero. I'm too quiet, too shy, too fucking complacent, and, contradictorily, too restless and too much of a dreamer. I seriously don't know what to do with myself sometimes .

I want to go out there into the world, guns blazing, but I'm too scared. I really loathe the coward inside of myself. I'm in a constant state of discontent and waiting. I always seem to be waiting for something to happen instead of doing shit myself.

Ugh. I need some kind of personality transplant. I need a TON of growing and changing to do.  Why am I so goddamn lame? Is it genetic? Were my parents this shy and cowardly? I find that hard to believe. They both seem so tough.

Ffffffffuuuuuuuuuu- I think it's close to That Time again. -__- Okay, enough hating on myself. I'm going to watch Lost or something. Yeah.

I swear on my pretty floral bonnet, I will end you.

I am sitting here, alone in an immaculately clean house. My mom's off at the airport waiting for a couple of her friends to arrive. I hope she gets back before several other friends get here from Tijuana, cause if not, it means I have to greet them. -__- Don't much feel up to it.

... I've been watching Firefly again, which explains why I'm speaking all western-like. ^-^ Love love love that show. Damn you, Fox. Curse you forever.

This is awesome:

Urk! I think the ladies are here. :(

Listening to the Prince of Egypt soundtrack

Looks like my brain is just trolling me. This night I dreamed I bought a delicious strawberry-banana smoothie at the mall, and a crazy lady came up to me and asked, "Can I have a sip? I want to know if it's worth my money..."
I stared for about two seconds and then yelled, "NO YOU CANNOT HAVE A SIP. WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU? I DON'T WANT YOUR HERPES."
My exact words. So, yeah, kinda funny, but not as good as yesterday's dream.

Paulina, my dad, and I are all going to L.A. on Friday on account that my mom is having a huge all-weekend slumber party with some of her friends from university. O.o So yeah, there won't be any room for us in the house. I ain't complaining though, cause Pau and I are going to Disneyland on Saturday!! Pretty excited!

I thought there was something else I wanted to add, but... for the life of me, I cannot remember what it was. It must not have been important.

Yeah, we kissed. *happyblush*

Dear Brain,
Thank you so much for that dream last night. :'D Me and my archaeological team discovering Lemuria? Awesome. Having to fight off some weird zombie monsters in the jungle (and totally kicking their undead asses)? Incredible. Sayid from Lost is part of my team and has the hots for me?


Squee!
I'm sorry I ever doubted you brain! I forgive you for those weird recurring dreams I had of that one kid back in high school.

Please keep it up!
-Daniela <3

In other super important news, I am doing laundry. Go me.

Coffee is amour.

Phew! Finished the art project last night. I tried to take a picture of it, but the thing has a serious glare.

I went out to see Paranormal Activity 3 on Saturday with several friends. It was more funny than scary to be honest, but I had heard that it was really scary, so I was covering my eyes the entire time but was somewhat disappointed. It was made funnier by the LOUD outbursts from my scared-as-hell friend. Oh, and he's gay and hilarious. This is important.

SPOILERS, in case anyone reads this and cares. 

*Little person under a sheet appears in frame.*

My friend: "DANG GIRL, GO BACK TO BED."

People in the theater: *laugh* *Secretly thinking that my friend is going to a special hell for talking during the movie.*

*Little person under the sheet is now behind the blonde babysitter.*

My friend: "Oooh, girl, ooh, girl-"

 *Person disappears from under the sheet, leaving it in a crumpled heap on the floor*

Entire theater: *Screams*

My friend (much louder than everyone else): "OH MY GAH OH MY GAAAHH!"


Heh, well, it was kind of a had-to-be-there moments.

I am finally going to color some comics. Now that I have time. :)

I'm doing some art homework. I'm kind of annoyed by it, but if I'm planning on taking my general ed classes next semester, I have nothing to whine about. I am going to enjoy these last few months of easy homework before I have to take shit like math and English. Admittedly, English isn't so bad, just the essays I'm going to have to write. And math... well, I'm thinking I'm going to be in the lowest level of it, so it won't be too bad. I hope.

I'm watching Sleepy Hollow. I can't see Christopher Walken in movies without picturing him dancing and singing with a fat, cross-dressed John Travolta. O.O Ruined forever.

Best get on with the homework!

Oh, and look at this. Shush, just look.



Palenque Ruins - II by ~karikaiyuk on deviantART

Listening to new Evanescence CD. Amy Lee's voice is possibly my favorite of all voices. Possibly.

So. I really want to use this gif for something:




Maybe once I get my license, and again when I get a job. :) Speaking of which, guy at Best Buy said that applying online is best. So I shall do that. *Doing it now.* *nervous again*

I had a bacon cheeseburger today.

The Spanish-dubbed version of Napoleon Dynamite is hilarious, but for an entirely different reason than the English version. I usually don't mind English dubbing of foreign movies, but I never thought of how it might sound in reverse. Now I know. o.O I'm pretty sure they only have two voice actors for the entire movie, one female and one male.

So, I've wanted to write and illustrate a children's book for a long time now. Thing is, it's really hard. I know, I know, how fucking hard can it be? But for some goddamn reason, it is. Like, I kind of know what the theme is going to be, and the main character, and even a little bit of the plot, but I'm still having slight issues planning how it's going to look. I want the drawings to be the main focus, but I want the writing to be entertaining, too. Maybe I'm thinking too much into this. -__-

Estradia is still my main focus, though. ^_^

Watching Lost and wondering vaguely what the hell is going on.

I took another quiz!

You know the Bible 52%!

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Well, for someone who hasn't touched a bible in years, if ever, not bad. It's definitely better than I expected. Thanks to movies like The Prince of Egypt and Joseph, King of Dreams. Yay Dreamworks!

Shit, midnight always has a way of creeping up on me.

So, Sucker Punch was very awesome. Kickass. It makes me want to go out and fight and be free and all that. And I want the soundtrack. :D

Also! I forgot to mention what happened when a UPS guy that came this afternoon. I was signing for the package that came (It was for Paulina). He said to me out of the blue: "You have nice hair."
Me: *Blinks a couple of times* "Thanks."
I was left in mild confusion for a bit, and then I was flattered. I do have nice hair. It was damn nice of him to notice. ;P

Anyway, I told Paulina, and the crazy wench says:
Paulina: "Was he young?"
Me: "Twenty-ish, I guess."
Paulina: "Was he cute?"
Me: "I guess..." (I honestly don't remember, so I guess he was pretty average. :P)
Paulina: "You should have asked for his number. That's how these things happen."
Me: "... ... ...No."

I should have seen it coming.

Emily Browning is purdy.

Egypt Tuesday was on Planet Green today. :D So that was awesome.

I'm watching Sucker Punch now. Seem cool. We'll see. Oooh, Action Scene Number One (Samurai dudes) is awesome.

I'm drawing some comics, too. I'm on a comic-drawing roll!

Scattered thoughts of the day.