TL;DR. Ye be Warned

I am so tied to my computer. It's an addiction, it really is. I'm thinking of restricting my internet usage a lot for the next year; A resolution, if you will.

It became clear to me this past week, when we were starting our final project in my drawing class. I had so much trouble coming up with an idea. (As whined about in this post) All I could think about was, "The internet will save me! The internet will give me ideas!" instead of coming up with ideas on my own. It's like I've become lazy when I have to be creative. Like I have no mind of my own. Instead of thinking something up myself, I check online to see what other people have come up with.

It explains the serious lack of writing, the major writer's block I have, and the artist's block. Another thing that sucks up any creativity I may have is mindless browsing. There is really no need for me to check my facebook and email more than twice a day, really. And yet, I spend my time on the internet clicking on yahoo and facebook and youtube over and over and over again, as if I expect something to change.

It's also been affecting my concentration. I never, ever have only one tab open. (even now. I'm typing this up and watching Fire and Ice on youtube.) If I ever, do, I quickly open a new one, because it feels like I should save time by multitasking. Now, I notice that even when I'm doing something not computer-related, I have to be doing something else too, just to save time. When I'm doing that, I don't fully concentrate on either thing.

Another thing that's bee a problem with me lately is spending way too much time watching TV shows. I feel like I'm watching too many at a time, ad I can't even keep track of what happened in which show. I swear, right now I am watching Battlestar Galactica, Clannad After Story, Mushi-Shi, Last Exile, X-Files, Avatar The Last Airbender, Doctor Who, and Firefly (the last three for the second time). Lost and Doctor Who alone have cost me most of my year. Now, I'm a lover of a good story, so I am definitely not cutting out TV shows altogether, but I am going to limit how many I am allowed to watch at one time (probably two is all I can handle).

Now, I don't want this post to be just about the things I am going to cut out, but also what I am going to focus on this year. Reading, for one. I miss the feeling of getting sucked in to a story to the point of not being able to put it down, to the point that I cry at a character's loss and cheer at their successes. I have not gotten to that point in hardly any book that I've read this year, because of my internet-an-tv-fueled ADD. I've read a fair few books, but too sporadically. So a focus on reading for next year.

Playing video games may come as a surprising thing to focus on, but it is something that I have too long abandoned. I am talking specifically about Final Fantasy X and X-2. I miss the satisfaction of leveling up and defeating bosses. It is something that required quite a bit of dedication. I am one to replay old games like Spyro the Dragon and Jak 2 and Shadow of the Colossus over and over, never moving on to new games. So, finishing FFX and X-2, and trying out new games. Skyrim and KOTOR are on the top of the list.

Writing and art are, obviously, a huge thing I want to focus on. I still have to many characters in my head whom are begging to have their stories told, and I will not let them turn to dust. I have too many dreams that should have been drawn and made real, but have sadly wasted away in a brain that goes in a million different directions and has no time to concentrate on anything. I need a little bit of discipline.

Also, blogging. I still like blogging, because if feels like a grown up version of journaling, but I need to update less when I have nothing to say. I think I have one too many posts that just say LOL NOTHING'S HAPPENED BUT I FEEL LIKE POSTING MY FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS ANYWAY. No more. (I still may need to vent sometimes, but that's different.)

In conclusion (I know, finally) I really want to discipline myself, to learn to concentrate, to multitask less, and to finish more. Turn off the TV, turn on the music. Close the laptop, open a book. Yeah, that sounds good. It's my new mantra. And screw waiting until January. I'm starting now. :D I feel very motivated.

And at last I seeeee the liiiight!!

Cousins are here, I've been spending time with them.

I have been replaying this video for like an hour.




I'm going to watch Tangled now. Bye.

Wearing my very cool Doctor Who shirt. :D

Whoo. Getting back into a productive routine is weird after being shut up in my room reading for almost three days straight. I looked out the window and hissed at the morning. Heh, well, I'm painting now, so, no long-term harm done. ;)

Lol at my mom, though. She signed up for one of those fake-ass get rich quick things you see advertised all over the internet. I told her it was probably fake, and she had to call this number to cancel her account. My mom doesn't think it's funny, but I think it's hilarious.

My mom had the idea to tutor kids who needed extra help with math and stuff a while back, and I told her that she should get started by signing up for a tutoring agency online and advertising, and she did! :)

Listening to this while I work:



Also, no surprise that Peter Dinklage won an Emmy. He's awesome.

Ahaha another one cause I couldn't resist

Harry Potter and Mean Girls mashups are the greatest.

I wonder what I would see if a dementor sucked up my happiness. I guess I already know. *Shifty eyes*

I've been watching all of the Harry Potter movies recently. I'm on Prisoner of Azkaban. Oh, and I've also signed up on Fictionpress and FanFiction.net. Hopefully it'll inspire me to write some stories. Original or otherwise.

Also, I want to read the Harry Potter books. Preferably over one sleepless weekend. Sounds like bliss.

Ugh. I'm going to have to get my permit again before I go take my driver's license. Boo, going to do that on Friday. In the meantime, I'm gonna study for it.

Hehe, I'm not on this movie yet, but these are hilarious:

LOL Lauren Cooper!

Gahhhhh, bored.

Wow, I'm bored. D: Not even the internet is entertaining today. :( It's always the same things I click. Youtube, email, Facebook, deviantArt, over and over and OVER again. I occasionally throw in Amazon and add more shit to my wishlist. I just have nothing else to do really. I'm having a bit of an art block-ish thing. Maybe I'm just lazy and I don't want to do anything. Maybe it's the fact that I started my period. Whoa, actually, that would explain a lot. -__-

Hmmm... Me Gusta

I started exercising. I don't know if it's just me, but I like to pretend that I'm in a game and I'm "leveling up."

Can't wait for this, whatever it may be!

Torture

Literature Final is today. Why are tests so tedious?!?!?! I have fifty multiple choice questions to answer and three (!) essays to write.

Watching Serenity :D

I'm addicted to the computer. Very addicted. I'd like to use it less this summer. Just maybe in the morning, check my email and all that, and a little for just browsing, or whatever. At maximum, an hour of aimless browsing. I seem to get trapped when I use StumbleUpon or something dumb like that. I just can't stop.

Here's a little song that kind of shows how I feel ;P

Ripped from someone's LJ

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Daniela
2. Dani
3. Danna - I hate this one. Really. My sister is the only one that can get away with calling me Danna, and that’s only because she’s called me that for so long.

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. DanielaCabrera11 – my Youtube
2. MayQueen123 – an old blog. I was really into Stairway to Heaven then.
3. Dannygirl123 – My deviantArt. I’m not really fond of this, and I forget why I chose it. -__-

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My imagination and creativity – Yeah, I’ll count them as one.
2. My open-mindedness
3. Wow, this was depressingly hard… my, um, magical powers. Yeaaaah.

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My inability to make friends. I’ve been told that I’m intimidating, and I don’t know why. -__-
2. Bouts of self-doubt
3. ACNE OF DEATH

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Mexican!
2. A little Scottish on my maternal grandpa’s side. His last name is Bruce.
3. And… that’s it I guess. I may have a little Spanish and Mexican Indian somewhere. So do most Mexicans though, right?

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Being judged by others. I am learning to trust myself and have no shame. ^_^
2. The thought of living my life without experiencing love.
3. Failing at life. I’m not 100% sure what I mean by this, but it sounds scary.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Drawing
2.A dose of inspiration, be it from books,  going for a walk, or dreams
3. Laughing. I am a melancholic person, and laughter is the cure for that.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. An old, flimsy t-shirt with cassettes on it.
2. Purple sweatpants. I call them my Rose Tyler pants because they remind me of some very baggy ones she wore in the episode “Rose.”
3. Underwear. Not even a bra. lol

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS: right now:
1. Within Temptation
2. Delerium
3. Niyaz

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: right now:
1. “My Jolly Sailor Bold” – Pirates of the Caribbean 4
2. “Heaven” - iMonster
3. “Touched” - Delerium

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Take commissions on deviantArt
2. Draw out in the park closeby
3. Get a job

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Passion
2. Respect and patience
3. Laughter

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I was recently bitten by a parrot.
2. I broke my leg when I was a kid. My cast was blue.
3. I still have some scars from when I got the chickenpox as a kid.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Intense eyes
2. That long-ish, floppy 90’s hair. Purrrrr..
3. Manly arms and hands

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Play sports properly – I’m just not coordinated, and not good at being part of a team.
2. Express myself as well as I would like – In normal conversation I sometimes feel like I can’t find the right words to describe things. This happens more when I speak Spanish.
3. Take a short shower – I seriously don’t know how so much time passes between getting in and getting out of the shower. I do my business quickly and it’s still not quick enough. >:o

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Drawing
2.Writing
3. Singing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Go to Disneyland. NAO PLZ!!
2. Graduate!
3. Er… sleep.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Artist
2. Author
3. Whatever it is Indiana Jones does

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. England
2. Japan
3. Thailand

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. Ofelia – Call me crazy, but I love this name for a girl
2. Maire – not with the Irish pronunciation of Moira, but Mai (as in My)- re (like in rhetoric). This was the name my parents were going to give my sister. I think it’s very pretty and unique.
3. Leonidas – I think my kids are going to hate me lol

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Travel aplenty
2. Fall in love
3. Inspire people with my art and stories

Conjoined twin gets engaged

Check this oddity out. *o*

I mean, it's cool that they're living a normal life and all, but it's just odd. I wonder what the fiance has to say. He must be a pretty awesome guy. It makes me feel better about my situation, though. I mean, if a conjoined twin can find love then there's hope for me still!

I want me a Cloche hat. 1920's Love!

So... what's new, what's new? I have a sunburn. Yeah. I've been swimming almost daily since about Friday. Am peeling and slightly tan, which I think looks weird on me. ~ Pale Skin Love~ Swims are really nice, exercise makes me feel good!

I'm watching the History Channel, something about the Dust Bowl. It's kind of sad how those people had to live through nearly-constant sandstorms.

Paulina's going to have her Confirmation today. I'm wearing a pretty black dress. :D Pics later, maybe.

Slacking in school. I'll be surprised if I get anything more than a low C in Literature. Damned essays. Econ is improving, but I still have a C, which is two letter grades lower than my dad expects. -__-

Geeky Y U NO face:

Oh, Oh! I watched the movie Henry and June last night. It was okay, a little unnecessarily florid, but I liked the clothes. I feel quite neutral about the sexual nature of the movie. I don't know, it didn't really move me or anything. I mostly wanted to watch the movie because I am a fan of Anais Nin's quotes.

Happy post

Part two of things that make me happy.

Doctor kisses Rose *sighhh*

Clannad

20 things that make me feel happy

1. Hugging my pets
2.  Watching my favorite T.V. shows.
3. Playing Wii Fit and pretending to kick some bad guy's ass. :P
4. Reading a good book in my backyard.
5. Dressing up and having a photo shoot.
6. Singing along to Lily Allen or Evanescence.
7. Drawing or painting. (fan art?)
8. Browsing deviantArt and stalking cool people. ^^;
9. Watching ghost videos on youtube.
10. Going out to get the mail, especially at night.
11. Watching Disney movies.
12. Writing stories. (fan fics or original works)
13. Making lists.
14. Playing PlayStation.
15. Drinking tea. <3
16. Reciting Shakespeare... from memory.
17. Reading webcomics
18. Playing Piano.
19. Browsing internet. (StumbleUpon!)
20. Burning incense and candles.

My favorite ghost video:




It's a shame most of the videos on youtube are fakes. They're just so cool!

I feel like complete and utter shit today, but I'm so tired of hearing myself whine, so here is a "Make me feel better post."




So what if this made me laugh?!

Okay, so this was a short post. I have things to do, I'll finish this later!

translations are funny

I used this website to transform this sentence:

Into this:

I have found my new addiction. That is all.