TL;DR. Ye be Warned

I am so tied to my computer. It's an addiction, it really is. I'm thinking of restricting my internet usage a lot for the next year; A resolution, if you will.

It became clear to me this past week, when we were starting our final project in my drawing class. I had so much trouble coming up with an idea. (As whined about in this post) All I could think about was, "The internet will save me! The internet will give me ideas!" instead of coming up with ideas on my own. It's like I've become lazy when I have to be creative. Like I have no mind of my own. Instead of thinking something up myself, I check online to see what other people have come up with.

It explains the serious lack of writing, the major writer's block I have, and the artist's block. Another thing that sucks up any creativity I may have is mindless browsing. There is really no need for me to check my facebook and email more than twice a day, really. And yet, I spend my time on the internet clicking on yahoo and facebook and youtube over and over and over again, as if I expect something to change.

It's also been affecting my concentration. I never, ever have only one tab open. (even now. I'm typing this up and watching Fire and Ice on youtube.) If I ever, do, I quickly open a new one, because it feels like I should save time by multitasking. Now, I notice that even when I'm doing something not computer-related, I have to be doing something else too, just to save time. When I'm doing that, I don't fully concentrate on either thing.

Another thing that's bee a problem with me lately is spending way too much time watching TV shows. I feel like I'm watching too many at a time, ad I can't even keep track of what happened in which show. I swear, right now I am watching Battlestar Galactica, Clannad After Story, Mushi-Shi, Last Exile, X-Files, Avatar The Last Airbender, Doctor Who, and Firefly (the last three for the second time). Lost and Doctor Who alone have cost me most of my year. Now, I'm a lover of a good story, so I am definitely not cutting out TV shows altogether, but I am going to limit how many I am allowed to watch at one time (probably two is all I can handle).

Now, I don't want this post to be just about the things I am going to cut out, but also what I am going to focus on this year. Reading, for one. I miss the feeling of getting sucked in to a story to the point of not being able to put it down, to the point that I cry at a character's loss and cheer at their successes. I have not gotten to that point in hardly any book that I've read this year, because of my internet-an-tv-fueled ADD. I've read a fair few books, but too sporadically. So a focus on reading for next year.

Playing video games may come as a surprising thing to focus on, but it is something that I have too long abandoned. I am talking specifically about Final Fantasy X and X-2. I miss the satisfaction of leveling up and defeating bosses. It is something that required quite a bit of dedication. I am one to replay old games like Spyro the Dragon and Jak 2 and Shadow of the Colossus over and over, never moving on to new games. So, finishing FFX and X-2, and trying out new games. Skyrim and KOTOR are on the top of the list.

Writing and art are, obviously, a huge thing I want to focus on. I still have to many characters in my head whom are begging to have their stories told, and I will not let them turn to dust. I have too many dreams that should have been drawn and made real, but have sadly wasted away in a brain that goes in a million different directions and has no time to concentrate on anything. I need a little bit of discipline.

Also, blogging. I still like blogging, because if feels like a grown up version of journaling, but I need to update less when I have nothing to say. I think I have one too many posts that just say LOL NOTHING'S HAPPENED BUT I FEEL LIKE POSTING MY FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS ANYWAY. No more. (I still may need to vent sometimes, but that's different.)

In conclusion (I know, finally) I really want to discipline myself, to learn to concentrate, to multitask less, and to finish more. Turn off the TV, turn on the music. Close the laptop, open a book. Yeah, that sounds good. It's my new mantra. And screw waiting until January. I'm starting now. :D I feel very motivated.

Sims not working, FFX seems like a good alternative. :)

Feel better since the last post. Writing really helps. I haven't talked to my mom about it, but I don't think I will. She'll just get defensive, and I don't want that right now.

I was trying to install the Sims 3 on my new computer and it wasn't working, then I realized that it has been scratched into oblivion. And I know who did it. My sister owes me a new one. >:( That wench never puts disks back in their boxes. I am annoyed.

I really want to play Skyrim. From what I've heard, it seems like a very cool game. :)

Christmas decorations are up in my house. Everything feels so Christmasy and nice.

HAIR, Y U NO BUTT-LENGTH ALREADY?

I am cleaning my room, listening to E-Type (Free Like A Flying Demon- good song), looking forward to a hot chocolate later and maybe a couple hours of playing my old Jak 2 game. I have nothing to complain about.

:D

I'm oddly happy despite a hefty art final that I have to do and mom's chemo tomorrow. I'm not complaining at all, this is a very nice mood I'm in.

Here's a random picture of me I just found, lookin like an elf. :P I am a weirdo.

Crash Bandicoot Warped!

Happy (late) Thanksgiving! Food was good, spending time with family was better. I am a happy girl. :)

I feel like playing old PlayStation games all day, not even getting out of my pajamas.

I might be getting a puppy! My aunt has a Blue Heeler puppy (mixed with something else, I forgot) and she told us we could have it. She's so cute!! We would have brought her with us, but my dad went insane and didn't want us to take it just then. So we're getting her in December. If my dad doesn't change his mind, which wouldn't surprise me. Fuck that, though, I'm taking her whether he wants it or not.

Also, this is the cutest monkey ever. This coming from a person who dislikes monkeys very much.

And at last I seeeee the liiiight!!

Cousins are here, I've been spending time with them.

I have been replaying this video for like an hour.




I'm going to watch Tangled now. Bye.

I want the Doctor Who theme as my ringtone.

I was just starting to feel shitty. I came on here to bitch about it and everything, and then I started watching an episode of Doctor Who. I INSTANTLY FEEL BETTER. Doctor Who is a god. It may be the closest thing I have to an actual religion.

Cousins are coming over tomorrow. The house is clean. My new computer needs an internet connection.

Short post is short.

Playing with the big boys now

Gyuuuuh! The Lost ending was... well... good. Not perfect, but hell, if I was the one writing this show, I wouldn't have thought of a better way to end it besides **SPOILERS** killing everyone. I may have shed a tear, there were a lot of touching moments. But anyway, as much as I enjoyed this show, I am glad it's over. There are tons of other shows out there I need to watch.


Sayid by *ObsessedGirl on deviantART

I'm thinking of starting on Battlestar Galactica. I've heard it's good.

I read some old journals of mine. Damn, I was a messed up, violent kid. Explains why I'm a messed up teenager/young adult. I'm a lot less ashamed of myself, though. I know what I am and I'm not afraid to show it. As much as reading the old notebooks made me go "Whut." they also made me proud at how far I've come.

'Cause sick people are high-larious!

I am crocheting meself a scarf. We'll see how it turns out. It just really needs to be layers-wearing and hot-chocolate drinking season already. It'd be nice to have someone to cuddle up to, as well. My kitty Luna will have to do, I guess.

Watching Firefly right now. Haha, Simon is so awkward. Bahaha and did Jayne just call Inara, "Eye-nehra?" I love Jayne, that pretend-dumb brute. Whyyyyy was this show cancelled?!?! I need a 'Browncoat' shirt. Let my geek-flag fly!

Oooh, I realized my mom threw away a bunch of old towels, among them one of my favorites. It was Lisa Frank. This made me grumpy. Don't judge me. (First World Problems)

Also, the Halloween candy? Got to go. I probably already gained five pounds.

Ow... I think the cramps are starting. This is not good. :(

Yeah, we kissed. *happyblush*

Dear Brain,
Thank you so much for that dream last night. :'D Me and my archaeological team discovering Lemuria? Awesome. Having to fight off some weird zombie monsters in the jungle (and totally kicking their undead asses)? Incredible. Sayid from Lost is part of my team and has the hots for me?


Squee!
I'm sorry I ever doubted you brain! I forgive you for those weird recurring dreams I had of that one kid back in high school.

Please keep it up!
-Daniela <3

In other super important news, I am doing laundry. Go me.

Coffee is amour.

Phew! Finished the art project last night. I tried to take a picture of it, but the thing has a serious glare.

I went out to see Paranormal Activity 3 on Saturday with several friends. It was more funny than scary to be honest, but I had heard that it was really scary, so I was covering my eyes the entire time but was somewhat disappointed. It was made funnier by the LOUD outbursts from my scared-as-hell friend. Oh, and he's gay and hilarious. This is important.

SPOILERS, in case anyone reads this and cares. 

*Little person under a sheet appears in frame.*

My friend: "DANG GIRL, GO BACK TO BED."

People in the theater: *laugh* *Secretly thinking that my friend is going to a special hell for talking during the movie.*

*Little person under the sheet is now behind the blonde babysitter.*

My friend: "Oooh, girl, ooh, girl-"

 *Person disappears from under the sheet, leaving it in a crumpled heap on the floor*

Entire theater: *Screams*

My friend (much louder than everyone else): "OH MY GAH OH MY GAAAHH!"


Heh, well, it was kind of a had-to-be-there moments.

I am finally going to color some comics. Now that I have time. :)

THE NEW EVENESCENCE CD IS MINE!

I also bought a controller for my laptop. Cause computer games are fun, but using the keyboard sucks.


Oh, that's right, I had a list of things I had to do this week. ^^; I'm going to give myself the weekend to finish it. Yeah.

Um. I'm off to write or draw or something.

I'm burning incence tonight. ^_^

Went downtown with my friends yesterday. *checks time* Oh, wait, technically two days ago. (Monday already? Fuck that.) Downtown San Diego is the best. I want to live there one day. Sure, there are creeps, but you just have to know how to handle them. ;P You gotta be tough to live there. Anyway, we went to eat at Sammy's Woodfired Pizza and we got a free sundae because the waiter was super-nice. He got a good tip that day. ^_^

So, pretty fun weekend!

Uh, what else? Oh yeah, I finished that book I was talking about in my last post. Kitty and the Midnight Hour. It's very good. I'm pretty sure I saw like ten other books of the same series at Border's, so, I'll have to read those too eventually. o.O I don't particularly like leaving a series unfinished.

Started reading The Lord of the Rings, because if I don't read those books I will be an embarrassment to the fantasy-geek community.

Erg, tired. Better go to sleep before I start rambling like a fool.

I'm watching To Catch a Predator. My god these guys are so gross.

Didn't get through the entire HP series this weekend. I just finished the fourth book. Hm. I'll have to take the last three a bit slower, 'cause I have work to do this week. Hurm, reading them makes me want to write a fan fic so bad. I will write.

Also!!! I might be going to Orlando soon to visit the Wizarding World of Harry Potter and other theme parks (DisneyWorld and such). It's not certain, but it's a definite probability. :D I might have to miss a couple of days of school, but that's just a bonus!

Ugh. I'm still watching To Catch a Predator, and one of those slimeballs brought his toddler with him to the house. My god, those guys are seriously going to a special hell. >:(

YALALA ...

Today was the first day of school. Teacher was very cool. I  don't feel much like writing a lot, but I thought a little update was in order.

Um, I got a PS2 game in the mail today: GrimGrimoire. Also, I got two posters:

Hmm, what else? I've been drawing stuffsies. May do an art post later. Hrm, maybe. I already have some homework. >:(

Listening to Within Temptation - The Howling

I went driving with my dad today. Plenty of driving. I'm not so scared of it anymore. I used to have, like, mini panic attacks every time I sat in the driver's seat. Of course, I still avoid the highways and I still have slight issued with full parking lots, but I am so much more at ease. :D I'm so brave, you guys!!1!!1

MY DREAMS ARE TORTURING ME WITH AWESOMENESS. I was a zombie slayer last night. Yeeah, I had a very cool rifle, and I shot those motherfuckers down! I was on some creepy island, Lost-esque, and I was all cool and in control. There were some other people with me, and they all listened to me like I was the leader. "Don't worry, we'll get through this night."
...Shut up, it was a good dream. The bad thing about those dreams is that I wake up and think, shit, why can't I really be like that?

But whatevs. I'm eating a baby bottle pop. And I'm wearing a temporary tattoo.

Sad about closing bookstores, but happy at 25 to 50 percent off!

I went to Borders today. I'm kinda bummed that they're closing, but I got some books there for a really good price!

Thirst series by Christopher Pike, one of my favorite authors. All three for about seven dollars.

Aaaand, this little gem. When I draw, the poses are so stiff, so I'm hoping this will help me. Draw Comic Book Action

I'm currently reading this: (omg creeper)

I'm on a total vampire craze for some reason. Also, in case it's not obvious, I'm wearing my PE shirt from middle school. As jammies.

Obligatory camwhore shot:

Lol I totally ignored this list of books I was planning to read this year.

Hmmm, what happened to my old Monster Book of Manga? I swear it was around here somewhere...

I felt like I needed to update. I don't know why. Nothing much has happened. I've done a bit of art, I posted some videos on my youtube. Hehe, they're a little weird and awkward, but, you know, whatever. ;)

The night after my last post (about the army thing) I cried myself to sleep after wondering what's the point of it all? Life, I mean. Well, I know it sounds kinda stupid now, but insomnia is a bitch. I'm okay now, except for when I have nothing to do, then I'm just depressed.

But I still feel antsy. Like I have to get up and get out. Why am I so afraid of change?

I really do hate myself sometimes. Ah well. I'm going to watch Chobits on Netflix now. And maybe eat my feelings. Just kidding.

Aaaand, to make this post not boring, here's that art thing I made. :) I'm actually kind of proud of it!

Harry Potter = Excellence

I have now watched Harry Potter 7 part 2 twice. TWICE THE EPICNESS. Aaaah, seriously, it was the best ending to the films. I got all teary-eyed at the Snape Pensieve part. ~*~Snape X Lily~*~ Also, the 19 Years Later part. Yeah, they didn't look nearly old enough, but it was still a pretty great scene. ;_;

I did my nails just for Harry Potter!

Not my original idea, BTW.


Ah, all of this Harry Potter excitement makes me want to re-watch all the movies and re-read all the books.

I'm writing this post on my mom's ipad. It is cool.

Been in Nogales, Arizona. It's hot as hell there. About 107 in the day. bleeeeh.

I'm back home now, home sweet home. :)Anyway, a little something happened in Nogales. Me and my dad were going to take both my laptops to this computer repair place, because they both had some issues, nothing major, just annoying. On our way in, my dad accidentally dropped the bag with both my laptops in it. And my newer laptop's monitor shattered. Heh, it was kind of a bummer. But yeah, my dad felt really bad. I didn't really get mad or anything, cause I knew it was an accident. The computer repair guy ordered a new one and I should be getting it back on saturday.

Some good times in Nogales with the fam. I got to meet my almost two month old niece. Monsoon season was starting, and the Arizona desert skies were gorgeous.

I'm going to meet my friends today. Should be fun. I iz happy.:D

Next week will be really fun, were all going to Sedona, Arizona. It's one of my favorite places in the world, that I've been to obviously.

Hmmm... Me Gusta

I started exercising. I don't know if it's just me, but I like to pretend that I'm in a game and I'm "leveling up."