Playing with the big boys now

Gyuuuuh! The Lost ending was... well... good. Not perfect, but hell, if I was the one writing this show, I wouldn't have thought of a better way to end it besides **SPOILERS** killing everyone. I may have shed a tear, there were a lot of touching moments. But anyway, as much as I enjoyed this show, I am glad it's over. There are tons of other shows out there I need to watch.


Sayid by *ObsessedGirl on deviantART

I'm thinking of starting on Battlestar Galactica. I've heard it's good.

I read some old journals of mine. Damn, I was a messed up, violent kid. Explains why I'm a messed up teenager/young adult. I'm a lot less ashamed of myself, though. I know what I am and I'm not afraid to show it. As much as reading the old notebooks made me go "Whut." they also made me proud at how far I've come.

Random thoughts of the morning.

Hmm. Ren faire was really cool. I wouldn't mind going again in the spring, this time in a much better outfit.

Mom starts another round of chemo tomorrow, and today my dad is going out of town and isn't coming back til Friday. I feel like a huge coward for wanting him here. I feel like I should be able to take care of my mom myself, but I get scared sometimes. Whatever, he's gone now.

Daylight savings is obsolete. 

I feel like a big pile of shit today. I have since last night. I can't draw at all either, so that's not helping. I seem to be a big empty creative-less shell.

Justin Bieber couldn't have gotten a girl pregnant, his balls haven't dropped.

I really hate school sometimes. It's all a really big goddamn hassle. I just want a nice job that pays relatively well (not even well well, just something that pays enough). But no. I have to go to school and get a degree, because according to society, if I don't go to college I'm a failure.

...They're probably right. I'm such a lazy, cowardly piece of shit. I wish I had the balls to be my own hero. I'm too quiet, too shy, too fucking complacent, and, contradictorily, too restless and too much of a dreamer. I seriously don't know what to do with myself sometimes .

I want to go out there into the world, guns blazing, but I'm too scared. I really loathe the coward inside of myself. I'm in a constant state of discontent and waiting. I always seem to be waiting for something to happen instead of doing shit myself.

Ugh. I need some kind of personality transplant. I need a TON of growing and changing to do.  Why am I so goddamn lame? Is it genetic? Were my parents this shy and cowardly? I find that hard to believe. They both seem so tough.

Ffffffffuuuuuuuuuu- I think it's close to That Time again. -__- Okay, enough hating on myself. I'm going to watch Lost or something. Yeah.

Yeah, we kissed. *happyblush*

Dear Brain,
Thank you so much for that dream last night. :'D Me and my archaeological team discovering Lemuria? Awesome. Having to fight off some weird zombie monsters in the jungle (and totally kicking their undead asses)? Incredible. Sayid from Lost is part of my team and has the hots for me?


Squee!
I'm sorry I ever doubted you brain! I forgive you for those weird recurring dreams I had of that one kid back in high school.

Please keep it up!
-Daniela <3

In other super important news, I am doing laundry. Go me.

I'm burning incence tonight. ^_^

Went downtown with my friends yesterday. *checks time* Oh, wait, technically two days ago. (Monday already? Fuck that.) Downtown San Diego is the best. I want to live there one day. Sure, there are creeps, but you just have to know how to handle them. ;P You gotta be tough to live there. Anyway, we went to eat at Sammy's Woodfired Pizza and we got a free sundae because the waiter was super-nice. He got a good tip that day. ^_^

So, pretty fun weekend!

Uh, what else? Oh yeah, I finished that book I was talking about in my last post. Kitty and the Midnight Hour. It's very good. I'm pretty sure I saw like ten other books of the same series at Border's, so, I'll have to read those too eventually. o.O I don't particularly like leaving a series unfinished.

Started reading The Lord of the Rings, because if I don't read those books I will be an embarrassment to the fantasy-geek community.

Erg, tired. Better go to sleep before I start rambling like a fool.

Te quiero puta! Hehe Rammstein *heart*

To Do Next Week 10/10 to 10/14:

• For the love of all that's holy, FINISH THAT BOOK YOU STARTED READING LIKE A MONTH AGO. Seriously, it'll take you three hours, tops. Just turn off the damn computer for one evening and do it!
• Register to vote. Don't stress about the political party. As long as you're not a Republican, you're golden. 
• Write one chapter of your Estradia novel. Just one. Don't worry about the planning, you'll fix that later. Just, ONE, chapter, is that so hard?
• Drive. Drive anywhere. To school, to Ralph's, to Target, to downtown Chula Vista. Everywhere. Work your way up to the highway.
• Think very very seriously about what I want to do next semester. If you're thinking of declaring a major, talk to a counselor about it. If you're going to work, THEN APPLY FOR A GODDAMN JOB!!! It's not that fucking hard.
• You're doing pretty good at keeping your room organized, so keep it up. Don't listen to your mother who tells you that it's too cluttered. It's not clutter, mother, it's just my room's personality.
• Start selling your art. Your family wants to buy some of it. You need the monies. DO IT.
• Go to the library and check out books on Egypt. 'Cause you know you want to.
• Oh, yeah, and do that homework thing for your jewelry class. And buy paper for your drawing class.
• Remember that Draw It Again meme you were planning on doing? Get off your lazy ass and do it.

That sounds right.  The reality is I'll probably accomplish about seven of these, maximum. I'm an idiot. Je suis une idiote. Une belle idiote. Hehe. Sometimes I pretend I speak French.

Dani? Oh yeah, she's an Egyptologist.

So... what's happened? Hm, I did my laundry! Yeah, nothing's happened. Except I watched The Prince of Egypt yesterday, and I realized that I really want to be an Egyptologist. Or an archaeologist. That would be incredible. :D

I really want some adventure in my life. Egyptology seems perfect for me because it's something I've always loved since I was young. I remember this one pop-up book on mummification I had. I would write "reasearch papers" on it (basically copying down all of the text of the book). It was so fun. Also, I loved playing out The Mummy (the movie, you know, with Brendan Fraser) with my barbies. My childhood friend Kaitlin might remember this. I would play my mom's new age CD and would pretend it was ancient Egyptian music. (I realize now that most of the songs were in Latin and some in French.)

There was something magical about that CD though:

Lame blackout.

Yay, I survived the blackout. Yeah. It was actually really disappointing, I was hoping to have an interesting survival/adventure story of how we survived several days without electricity, but no. The SDG&E people exaggerated this blackout. We spent maybe nine hours without electricity, which was nothing.

However, I'm very proud to say that the moment the power went out, I sprang into survival mode. Step one, find the man-powered radio and tune in to the news. After I hear that it'll be a while before the electricity will come back, I move on to step two: Find all flashlights and put them in reaching distance, also gather some candles and matches.

Optional is step three (which I did, I wasn't panicking or anything, but I rather be safe than sorry): Gather all emergency survival bags and first aid kits and put them somewhere you can get quickly. Call me stupid and paranoid, but how the hell was I supposed to know this wasn't a terrorist attack or something? Or maybe in a terrible twist of fate, a huge earthquake struck right then in the middle of our blackout? San Diego has a few fault lines, after all.

Hehe, I feel dumb now, but people will be thanking me once the zombie apocalypse comes down on us. I don't plan on dying, you know. :P

Anyway, yesterday was Paulina's friend Juliette's quinceañera, and I danced until my feet got blisters. It was awesome. I straightened my hair for it, and it is now slightly past my waist. Yay!

YALALA ...

Today was the first day of school. Teacher was very cool. I  don't feel much like writing a lot, but I thought a little update was in order.

Um, I got a PS2 game in the mail today: GrimGrimoire. Also, I got two posters:

Hmm, what else? I've been drawing stuffsies. May do an art post later. Hrm, maybe. I already have some homework. >:(

Listening to Within Temptation - The Howling

I went driving with my dad today. Plenty of driving. I'm not so scared of it anymore. I used to have, like, mini panic attacks every time I sat in the driver's seat. Of course, I still avoid the highways and I still have slight issued with full parking lots, but I am so much more at ease. :D I'm so brave, you guys!!1!!1

MY DREAMS ARE TORTURING ME WITH AWESOMENESS. I was a zombie slayer last night. Yeeah, I had a very cool rifle, and I shot those motherfuckers down! I was on some creepy island, Lost-esque, and I was all cool and in control. There were some other people with me, and they all listened to me like I was the leader. "Don't worry, we'll get through this night."
...Shut up, it was a good dream. The bad thing about those dreams is that I wake up and think, shit, why can't I really be like that?

But whatevs. I'm eating a baby bottle pop. And I'm wearing a temporary tattoo.